I'd like to be a little vulnerable and let you all in on a big part of who I am.
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Some things that I know about myself: I love my family. I adore my husband. I have a wonderful mom and sister that mean the world to me. I am kind. I care. I am loving.
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Some more things I know about myself: I am shattered. I struggle with severe anxiety. I am scared. I don't like being the center of attention, (unless I'm with my close family.) I am not the person that will ever raise my hand and give an answer. I am critical of myself. I have a hard time meeting new people. I have hurt people. People have hurt me.
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Some more things I know about myself: I suffer from PTSD. I have had multiple traumatic experiences- and I ignored them- and they didn't go away. They just got worse, and worse, and worse.
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Some more things I know about myself: I need to believe. I need Heavenly Father. I need a why. I need something to fight for.
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Dilly Designs isn't just a business, career, or even a place to help others. It's also a place for me. It keeps me close to my testimony. When I feel shaken or lost or I start comparing myself and my spiritual journey to others- I try to remind myself to work. Work on my art. Work on this beautiful LDS business. Let the art bring me back, over and over again. Even at first if I feel it's pointless, I always have that pull to Dilly Designs, and Dilly Designs nurtures me, little by little, until I feel comforted and strengthened again.
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To anyone out there that is reading this and can relate; just know I understand. Find your why. Your pull. Your reason. Cling to something that will pull you back to your testimony. Know that you are deeply and infinitely loved.
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Love, Kamie
www.dillydesignsart.com
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